[There's so much quiet on his end. So that's what the bond feels like. It's ... well, it's beautiful, isn't it? Seregil can't imagine it, but now he's felt it, and seen the emotion between Alec and him.
And it cut even deeper into the idiotic jealousy he had of himself.
He wasn't that man, hadn't had those experiences yet, and hadn't changed to the man that Alec had grown to love.
Still, he pushes those thoughts down, avoiding them for Alec's sake and his own. He never liked dwelling on bad things. Pushing them aside was far more effective. Instead, he affects a jovial tone when he comments - for Alec would notice if he didn't. It'd bring up questions.]
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And it cut even deeper into the idiotic jealousy he had of himself.
He wasn't that man, hadn't had those experiences yet, and hadn't changed to the man that Alec had grown to love.
Still, he pushes those thoughts down, avoiding them for Alec's sake and his own. He never liked dwelling on bad things. Pushing them aside was far more effective. Instead, he affects a jovial tone when he comments - for Alec would notice if he didn't. It'd bring up questions.]
So, that's what you've been doing with your time.