Alex Reagan (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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thesphererp2020-03-31 05:45 pm
11calls) wrote in thesphererp2020-03-31 05:45 pm
The last song sung, that freedom is in tone
[Alex has absolutely been dreading this since the entire thing started, and right now she's in her office again, but the merchant dome is big and she's not been able to get out of it in order to avoid doing it. She doesn't sound angry, she just sounds like she's hurting and exhausted.]
Everyone here thinks I'm nice and a good person, and I try to be. But back home I did a lot of really stupid things without thinking through any of the consequences. I started with a story and wanting an interview and then I was my normal frustrating self and pushed through and did... A lot of things I regret, honestly. I hurt people I love. I kind of lost my mind for a while. I definitely lost my professional ethics and when this is all done, I'm probably not going to be able to be a reporter anymore. If I still am back home, I guess.
Simon wanted to protect me because he believes I'm going to save the world. I mean I think, getting answers out of Simon was never the easiest thing I did. Or anyway at the very least he believes I'm one of the good things about it. All it did was end up getting him turned into the demon that he's been fighting being his entire life. Even then he still was trying to save me from Warren and everything else.
I try to be a good person, but my ambition and curiosity for the story have started chain events that probably have apocalyptic consequences for the entire world. My entire world, I guess. And I know that Richard and I are going to stop it. Somehow. I hope.
But there's still a small part of me that just wishes he'd take the choice I offered to run away from it. Even for a little while. Even though I know that there's no running from Warren and what I've done. And there's no way we're not going to Geneva. We're us and we need answers to all of this. But... I still wish we could.
[Alex just clicks off without saying anything else.]
Everyone here thinks I'm nice and a good person, and I try to be. But back home I did a lot of really stupid things without thinking through any of the consequences. I started with a story and wanting an interview and then I was my normal frustrating self and pushed through and did... A lot of things I regret, honestly. I hurt people I love. I kind of lost my mind for a while. I definitely lost my professional ethics and when this is all done, I'm probably not going to be able to be a reporter anymore. If I still am back home, I guess.
Simon wanted to protect me because he believes I'm going to save the world. I mean I think, getting answers out of Simon was never the easiest thing I did. Or anyway at the very least he believes I'm one of the good things about it. All it did was end up getting him turned into the demon that he's been fighting being his entire life. Even then he still was trying to save me from Warren and everything else.
I try to be a good person, but my ambition and curiosity for the story have started chain events that probably have apocalyptic consequences for the entire world. My entire world, I guess. And I know that Richard and I are going to stop it. Somehow. I hope.
But there's still a small part of me that just wishes he'd take the choice I offered to run away from it. Even for a little while. Even though I know that there's no running from Warren and what I've done. And there's no way we're not going to Geneva. We're us and we need answers to all of this. But... I still wish we could.
[Alex just clicks off without saying anything else.]