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[11calls]

[Alex is sitting in her office, and she's got coffee and a stack of books and paperwork in front of her. But she's also got a look as if she's trying very hard not to start screaming. So, instead she just lets out the words in a rush that's different than how she normally speaks because she's trying to get this out as quickly as possible.]

I had romantic feelings for Strand way sooner than I should have, especially considering I should never have had them at all and almost all of the sketchier violations of my journalism ethics happened because of them in one way or another. And I know that I'd do it again, even knowing what I know now.

[Then, a bit more relieved, Alex just breathes:]

Fuck.

[Before she turns of the feed.]

audio; un: s.uris

[stantheman]

[ It seems no one is going to be immune to these compulsions. There's actually not a lot that Stan feels is wrong that he's done. There's only really a few things he holds any guilt about. ]

Sometimes I wish I had never gone back to the Neibolt house. I knew that I was going to die if I did. I knew It would kill me. I just didn't know that it was going to be so much later. And I know it's horrible because if we had separated we all would have died.

[ But if he had never gone back in, maybe he could have survived and then he could have lived a full boring life and forgotten all about It, never to remember again. ]

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[beboth]

[ It’s a compulsion that Theon doesn’t feel that he can deny. There’s plenty of sins and things that eat away at him. His life is but a series of bad decisions that have hurt people he should have been better for. But there is perhaps one particular guilt that’s at the root of all guilt. There’s never been anyone that could assuage it and even is death doesn’t even the score. ]

I killed my best friend and my brother. I betrayed the man who raised me and murdered people who had done nothing but care for me. I turned my back on everyone that mattered because I was trying to prove I was someone I wasn’t. It was all stupid and nothing I do makes it right because there are two many bodies on my hands.

[ The feed cuts as soon as the words end because hell if Theon wants to even acknowledge that conversation happened or talk about Robb or Ned or any of them. ]