[Nope. He wasn’t going to cry. His eyes could burn all they want but he was so so so tired of crying. He’s clenching his fists right enough to gouge the skin and it’s just enough to keep his emotions in check.]

I’m sorry. I’ve been a total jerk and all you did was be nice to me and I didn’t know how to deal with any of this and I lashed out at you and I’m so sorry. I miss you and I’ve been acting so stupid and I’m sorry.