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[ Tired. That's the best way to describe how Lorna currently looks. Tired and out of it. The video feed comes on to show her sitting with her legs dangling off the edge of her bed. For a few seconds she doesn't say anything, she just kicks her boots against the back of the bed as she tries to resist the compulsion. After the seconds drag on to a frustrating degree she pulls out one of the military knives she's so keen to play with and starts to toss it up. Green mist swirls around her hands as she causes it to stop just before it'd have landed into her own thigh. It's a game. Toss it up, let it fall down, stop it with her powers just before it's too late.

Or maybe don't.

She really doesn't want to say what this compulsion is pushing her towards. Not at all. ]

I brought down a plane with innocent people on it just to kill one person. I ripped it apart while it was in the sky and I bet nobody on board even knew what was happening. [ She looks at the camera directly. ] The entire world caught on fire after that. It all went to hell but I don't know if I'd take that back if I could. That's the messed up part. He needed to die and there wasn't another way. Nobody else was going to step up and do it. [ Is that a hint of bitterness in her tone? You bet it is. There's a lot of feelings about that she's never discussed or even brought up and that builds up. ]

He had to be taken out for my people to be safe. [ And she cuts the feed off there just as her knife comes back down to her thigh. ]

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Yeah, I know. But... I believe in Mom.

And so that condemns you to the mutants of your world?

Yeah. It's... what happened is a really complex thing. But they blame her for a really bad thing that happened.

Did you have anything to do with it?

Uh... well, the fact that the original Tommy Maximoff died totally has shit to do with it.

All I'm saying is I think it's shitty for you to get blamed for something that you didn't do.

We're mutants. We tend to get blamed for shit like that.

Basically the universes scapegoats.

Yeah, that's... that's fucking accurate. People don't care about our mistakes. They see all of them as malicious.

Even if it's in self-defense, it's still malicious to them.

That's because they're racist cowards who don't like that we are born like this because they weren't born like this.

Sometimes you sound exactly like Andy.

I don't know who Andy is, but if they sound like me then they have some SERIOUS problems.

He's a friend. About your age actually. I think you'd get along.

Well, I really dno't mind having more friends, you know? Tell me about the kid.

His powers manifested while he was at a school dance while some kids were bullying him. Lost control and it didn't take long for Sentinel Services to come after them. Sentinel Services came after them and they came to the Underground for help.

He's a good kid. Proud of who is and really protective of his family. He came with me when I left the Underground. [ There's a hint of guilt in her voice there. ] He was with me when my daughter was born.

[Sentinels. Tommy shudders at the thought. Sentinels were NEVER good.]

Was... him coming with you a bad thing? I mean, he would have been there to support you.

I can't lie, I was glad to have someone there with me. But it meant he chose me and the Inner Circle over his own family [ so did she ] and that was hard on him. He also...a lot of shit went wrong and he had to do something he never should have had to do.

The thing is, that was his choice, right? You have to respect his right to make his own choices.

He was a kid and he followed me.

What do you define as kid? Because fuck, once most mutants get their powers, they have no choice but to grow up. To be adults. And thus he was an adult that made his own choice. Don't take that from him.

Yeah, he'd definitely like you.

The world makes us grow up fast, Lorna. Mutants that is. So even when we're young we make our own decisions. Gotta accept our good ones just like our bad ones.

You're right. Sometimes it's just hard to not blame yourself. But no matter what side he stayed with, he'd have gone through shit.

Exactly. So at least he got to choose the shit. Even if it's worse, that's something I'd want. The choice.

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