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[This is actually a rare sight on the network, because Alex normally always does audio posts. But today it's a video. She's in her office and she looks much better than she normally does. There's no signs of her ever having an insomnia problem, and that look of vague huntedness is gone as well. While Alex always has an easy smile, it's not the devil may care grin she's got now.

But it's been a few days, her anger has mostly faded and she's done research because an Alex Reagan is an Alex Reagan in that sense.]

So, I just want to apologize if I seem a bit weird. I mean, I am a bit weird compared to what you're used to. But that's because I'm not her. I'm sorry. I'd still like to meet you, and get to know you and tell your stories!

[Alex's radio ready voice sounds earnest and sincere, because she is! But there is definitely a but coming.]

However, I would appreciate it if people could stop asking me about Strand, because whatever your old Alex might have had with him? I don't. So I don't know if he's okay or not. Ask him. I don't know if old me was his keeper or whatever, but I'm definitely not.

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How do you deal living with regrets? On a personal level?

On a personal level? I cry a lot. Throw myself into work. Things like that.

[Its actually true for both Alexs, really.]

But I make myself go on mostly. Because you can’t go back.

Do you try to do better? Or just differently then what you did in the past?

I always try and do better. I mean what's the point of it if you don't?

Sometimes it feels like I just keep making the same mistakes over and over again, just a little differently each time.

Does a little differently mean you like. Make a little better choices sometimes. Because that’s good. No one can just change overnight. That’s not how any of this works.

I don't know if they're better, but I am trying. I guess that's the important part or so everyone keeps telling me.

It is. And your friends including the other me probably, know that.

[Alex is just going to assume that about herself because she's definitely correct.]