Audio - UN: TheBetterTwin

[doubled_speed]

[It's been eating at him. A lot. For years. And the compulsion results in him talking. He has to talk, has to say it, and he definitely has to say it now. So here it is, and his stomach is roiling.]

When I was fifteen I blew up half my school. Because it turns out that I wasn't just fast. I wasn't even remotely just fast.

Molecular acceleration and a chemistry lab? Fucking problematic.

[His voice starts shaking, because he doesn't want to keep saying it, but the people here have to know what the fuck he did. They have to UNDERSTAND. The why doesn't matter. Just the what.]

Last I heard there was still a kid in a coma from it. There were a lot of injuries, chemical and fire burns and all that. But I blew up my fucking school. The trial? Not even a half a day. In and out and they threw away the fucking key.

I deserved it. All those people I could have killed.

I fucking deserved it.

[Because he believes it. So much. With that, he cuts off the recording. And flees back to his dome because fuck, he doesn't want to interact with anyone right now. And no doubt, they don't want to deal with a teenaged psychopath that blew up his school.]

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[doubled_speed]

[He doesn’t want to leave his dome but... Well, what choice does he have? He can at least LEAVE hers if he doesn’t like how the conversation is going. But if Wanda kicks him out? That’s not something he’s good on. So he sighs and after a second he’s knocking on her door. Let him in okay?]

[minus1twin]

Come in. It's unlocked.

[As if to accent this fact Wanda reaches forward with the red mist and the door swings open. She's sitting on the couch and there is a bottle of vodka on the table if Tommy wants to drink through the conversation. Wanda, for her part, is currently drinking tea.]

Ultron is out. Please come in and sit.

[doubled_speed]

[He's in the room in an instant and closes the door. And the second he sees the vodka he snatches it up and throws some back. Not because he can get drunk. They both know he can't. But it's a statement in a lot of ways.]

I hurt people. That fucking matters.

[minus1twin]

It does matter but what happened matters too.

[She pauses and chews momentarily on her lower lip.]

Do you think you're the only one who's killed people, who's wanted to kill and hurt others, who's made mistakes? [Wanda has never thought of Tommy has a child but his attitude is very childish in many ways. It's a lot like her attitude years before.]

[doubled_speed]

[Of course he was being childish over it. The mistake he had made had been when he was a child.]

I... there were people that wanted to make me a weapon. But I refused. But the school... I did that. I can't erase that.

[minus1twin]

That doesn't sound like a bad reason Tommy.

[Her voice is gentle but firm.]

I know it's hard but can you explain to me what happened? From the beginning.

I will always love you. No matter what's in your past. I know you Tommy.

[doubled_speed]

[She doesn't know him. This... was where he was afraid to lose her. He takes another swig.]

I've got two powers, right? Speed, and the molecular manipulation bullshit. I can make things explode by making them go REALLY fast. I... didn't know that. Not until that day. I was already presenting the other signs of my mutanthood. And I was getting picked on at school.

[minus1twin]

[It still doesn't sound like its his fault but she is patient and waits to hear the whole story first.]

What happened then?

[doubled_speed]

One of the guys was trying to fuck with me, when the teacher hadn't shown up yet. He grabbed me and tried to pour something on me. I... I pushed him away. And in the process... I used my powers to agitate the chemicals. Boom.

[minus1twin]

[Wanda's mouth tilts into a frown.]

That doesn't sound like it's your fault Tommy.

[She's trying her best to understand but it sounds like he was just defending himself.]

[doubled_speed]

There is a boy in a coma and the law says I’m a criminal.

[minus1twin]

The law says that I am a weapon.

[She counters firmly.]

It isn't something you should be proud of Tommy but you shouldn't feel this much guilt. It was an accident. [Never mind that she's feel this guilty about things in the past.]

[doubled_speed]

[Tommy IS a weapon, almost more than her.]

Accidents still kill.

[minus1twin]

I know.

I have killed and I still feel that guilt but I've accepted that they are gone and it is for that reason that I won't stop fighting to protect people. [Her expression softens and saddens.]

You aren't alone and you shouldn't beat yourself up. All we can do is make what is within our influence better. That is how we can make up for it. Guilt doesn't change anything.

[doubled_speed]

Guilt also doesn’t just go away because you want it too. Or so I’m finding. I thought... I thought I was mostly past this.

[minus1twin]

It doesn't, I know but there are ways to turn it into passion.

I don't want to see this stop you or negatively influence you're decisions.

[doubled_speed]

I keep trying to protect people. I’m not good for much else.

[minus1twin]

You're good at being there for me.

[doubled_speed]

Thanks. I try.