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[doubled_speed]

[It's been eating at him. A lot. For years. And the compulsion results in him talking. He has to talk, has to say it, and he definitely has to say it now. So here it is, and his stomach is roiling.]

When I was fifteen I blew up half my school. Because it turns out that I wasn't just fast. I wasn't even remotely just fast.

Molecular acceleration and a chemistry lab? Fucking problematic.

[His voice starts shaking, because he doesn't want to keep saying it, but the people here have to know what the fuck he did. They have to UNDERSTAND. The why doesn't matter. Just the what.]

Last I heard there was still a kid in a coma from it. There were a lot of injuries, chemical and fire burns and all that. But I blew up my fucking school. The trial? Not even a half a day. In and out and they threw away the fucking key.

I deserved it. All those people I could have killed.

I fucking deserved it.

[Because he believes it. So much. With that, he cuts off the recording. And flees back to his dome because fuck, he doesn't want to interact with anyone right now. And no doubt, they don't want to deal with a teenaged psychopath that blew up his school.]

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[minus1twin]

Tommy. That isn't your fault.

You don't deserve it.

[This really worries her. Wanda knows what it's like to carry guilt with her and it isn't a good thing to do.]

[doubled_speed]

[He disagrees. And she does get a response. In an hour.]

You're FUCKING kidding me, right?

[His voice is loud and sharp when he does answer. And borderline hysterical.]

I FUCKING BLEW UP A BUILDING!

[minus1twin]

[Her expression sets firmly on this point.]

So have I. Hundreds are dead because of me. Does that mean I deserve this fate? Tommy it was a mistake. It isn't okay, I won't say that but you still don't deserve to be hurt.

That doesn't make it better or change what's happened.

[doubled_speed]

[How does she know it's a mistake? Because for all she knows it wasn't. His powers were... intense, even if it's not like that here.]

You're a hero. You didn't mean to hurt people. But me? I blew up a school. Definitionally all innocents. What does it take to make you realize all this?

[minus1twin]

Then explain it to me Tommy. I can understand.

[Her voice softens but there is pain there. She hadn't been a hero then...]

Please trust in me.

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[morethanatrickster]

[His eyebrow is arched, questioning and disbelieving.]

Now, that doesn't sound like you, Tommy. Why would you experiment with such a volatile ability where innocents could be killed?

[doubled_speed]

Because I'm a fucking idiot.

[He didn't know. He didn't KNOW of his powers then, not about the booms. ONly the speed. So he didn't know how bad his run in would go that day.]

[morethanatrickster]

Well, yes. [That was a joke.] But my point here is that you had no way of knowing what may happen.

[doubled_speed]

You don’t fucking know that.

[Except he does. Loki absolutely knows because Loki is the only one here that Tommy has told, REALLY told. Told that it was a mistake. That he had been surprised by his powers manifesting. That he had worked HARD to save everyone he could. Loki knew there was no blame for Tommy for it. But that didn’t take away the guilt.]

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[gristle]

You didn't deserve it. Did you know? Did you have any idea that's what would have happened?

[doubled_speed]

[Did he know? No. But does that absolve him of the crime?]

I don't think it's that simple, Bev. Like... I fucking hurt people.

[gristle]

Could you control it?

[doubled_speed]

Now? Yeah. After I went to that freaking jail and they decided to try and turn me into a weapon.

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[garrrr]

That doesn't really sound like it's your fault...

[ Here is Gar Logan being the biggest hypocrite ever. ]

[doubled_speed]

You're so fucking not right.
blowing up a building
i did that

[garrrr]

Did you mean to do it?

[doubled_speed]

does that fucking matter when a building is on fire?

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[ihadstrings]

[As soon as Ultron sees the recording, he sighs. He knows that's something Tommy never would've wanted anyone to know, not after the way he'd made Ultron promise not to tell anyone when he'd first told him. So he does what a decent human being would do and goes to find him.]

I know you're in there, kid. Come on. Open up.

[doubled_speed]

[Yeah, two people in the Sphere knowing Tommy had blown up his school had not only happened but been an accident. Now everyone knew. He hated this. He hated being known like this. Judged. Hated that people could just arbitrarily decide 'clearly you didn't mean it' when they don't know him.

Frankly, he didn't want to talk. But there were those that insisted. And so here he was, finding himself slamming his door open and glaring up at his grandfather.]

What you could you POSSIBLY fucking want?

[ihadstrings]

[Ultron just barges on into Tommy's dome, ducking his head so that he can properly fit through the doorway He has no manners. Somehow that lesson has still escaped him even after all these months.

Once he's inside, he turns around to look at Tommy. There's no pity in his eyes, only sympathy.]

You're the one who taught me to give a shit about people. Deal with it.

[doubled_speed]

Why don’t you come in?

[Tommy’s not as good at the frosty sort of dry tone that is clearly a dismissal as some other people he knows. But dammit if he doesn’t try in this particular cast. Still, he closes the door behind his grandfather and sighs.]

You’re really lucky that Uncle Marcos isn’t in right now. He’s not a fan of people barging in, and even you might have problems with that whole lasers from his hands thing.

What could you possibly want?

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[ferrokinetically]

You've learned to control yourself since then haven't you?

[doubled_speed]

Only because some people wanted to use my powers as a means of assassinations.

[ferrokinetically]

But you've still learned control, right? Which means you won't have a repeat of that. You caused something shit to happen once while it was outside of your control. You can't beat yourself up forever about it if you've learned control now.

[doubled_speed]

And if I go crazy? If I lose control? What then? What if I’m just seconds away from going crazy like gramps doe?