Audio - UN: TheBetterTwin

[doubled_speed]

[It's been eating at him. A lot. For years. And the compulsion results in him talking. He has to talk, has to say it, and he definitely has to say it now. So here it is, and his stomach is roiling.]

When I was fifteen I blew up half my school. Because it turns out that I wasn't just fast. I wasn't even remotely just fast.

Molecular acceleration and a chemistry lab? Fucking problematic.

[His voice starts shaking, because he doesn't want to keep saying it, but the people here have to know what the fuck he did. They have to UNDERSTAND. The why doesn't matter. Just the what.]

Last I heard there was still a kid in a coma from it. There were a lot of injuries, chemical and fire burns and all that. But I blew up my fucking school. The trial? Not even a half a day. In and out and they threw away the fucking key.

I deserved it. All those people I could have killed.

I fucking deserved it.

[Because he believes it. So much. With that, he cuts off the recording. And flees back to his dome because fuck, he doesn't want to interact with anyone right now. And no doubt, they don't want to deal with a teenaged psychopath that blew up his school.]

Comments

[doubled_speed]

[Did he know? No. But does that absolve him of the crime?]

I don't think it's that simple, Bev. Like... I fucking hurt people.

[gristle]

Could you control it?

[doubled_speed]

Now? Yeah. After I went to that freaking jail and they decided to try and turn me into a weapon.

[gristle]

Yeah. But you couldn’t then. I get it was bad, Tommy. I really do. But you didn’t want to hurt people. You had no idea. And no one deserves the jail you were in.

[doubled_speed]

[But... he SHOULD have known. He absolutely should have known.]

Sometimes speedsters have other powers. I should have known better.

[gristle]

Only sometimes. And how many speeders did you actually know then?!

[doubled_speed]

[None, except what was known about them online that he could find out on school computers or by people talking.]

Does it matter?

[gristle]

Of course it matters! You're so determined for kicking yourself for something you had no idea about. That's why it matters!

[doubled_speed]

[Bev, please... Just... just please don't hate him for what he did.]

I'm not a good person, not always.

[gristle]

No one is a good person always, Tommy. I’m not.

[doubled_speed]

You are one of the literal best people. Don’t you insult my best friend.

[gristle]

But I’m not good all the time! No one is. That’s the point!

[doubled_speed]

Nope. You’re good all the time You can make bad decisions and still be good.

[gristle]

Then why is it different for you?

[doubled_speed]

I...

[Fuck]

You’re right.

[gristle]

I know. I’m your smart friend too. Wanna come over and play with Thor? He can roll over now.

[doubled_speed]

You are. And you’re also the friend that took care of kid Tommy. He really liked you.

Wanna be there to play though.

[gristle]

Yeah? I liked him too. Like you better, though.

Come on over whenever.

[doubled_speed]

[Like him better than that pure, happy kid that Tommy had been? THe well-adjusted one? He wishes he had been that kid. But he's not.]

But he was... me but better. almost ALL of them were me but better.

[gristle]

But they weren't you. They weren't my brother.

[Duh, Tommy. Duh.]

[doubled_speed]

[That’s... interesting. Wow.]

Little Tommy wished he had a sister like you if that counts. Then again, he also wanted a puppy

[gristle]

I was only cool because of the puppy and ice cream.

[doubled_speed]

No, you were nice to him. And held his hand. He didn't get to meet many people.

[gristle]

Because of who his family was?

[doubled_speed]

Yeah. For safety. I get it more because I'm an adult. They were almost kidnapped once. Because of who their family was.