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[This is actually a rare sight on the network, because Alex normally always does audio posts. But today it's a video. She's in her office and she looks much better than she normally does. There's no signs of her ever having an insomnia problem, and that look of vague huntedness is gone as well. While Alex always has an easy smile, it's not the devil may care grin she's got now.

But it's been a few days, her anger has mostly faded and she's done research because an Alex Reagan is an Alex Reagan in that sense.]

So, I just want to apologize if I seem a bit weird. I mean, I am a bit weird compared to what you're used to. But that's because I'm not her. I'm sorry. I'd still like to meet you, and get to know you and tell your stories!

[Alex's radio ready voice sounds earnest and sincere, because she is! But there is definitely a but coming.]

However, I would appreciate it if people could stop asking me about Strand, because whatever your old Alex might have had with him? I don't. So I don't know if he's okay or not. Ask him. I don't know if old me was his keeper or whatever, but I'm definitely not.

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Really? I suppose that's something to be proud of then! I hadn't thought of it that way before.

Perhaps you're merely an exception to the usual wretched masses of humanity I encounter.

[Or maybe Ultron's general opinion of humanity overall is finally starting to change a little bit.]

There's definitely some humans that suck for sure, but I think in general we're good. Or at least most of us try to good anyway. Even if we're not that good at doing it.

I've never really been able to believe that. Sure, there's some good here and there, but overall, humanity is just a bunch of bad eggs.

Maybe it's a half glass empty, half glass full kind of thing?

Seems like we're mixing metaphors now, but okay. I'll humor you. What makes humanity so good? And don't start in with talk of all their fluffy emotions, I want some concrete examples.

[He's such a cranky robot sometimes.]

[The difference, possibly one of the biggest actually is that this Alex doesn’t have three years of asshole wrangling experience. So, as such she gives a response much different than the other Alex would.]

You know, emotions are kinda the whole human thing.

Guess that makes me closer to humanity then I thought.

[Though Ultron's are corrupted, and ultimately, his experience at actually handling them is nearly nil.]

Why do you think you aren't?

I was supposed to be better then humanity. The closest thing to perfection that could made made in the form of artificial intelligence.

[That clearly hadn't gone according to plan.]

Wouldn't artificial intelligence not need emotions in order to be perfect? Considering so many of humanity's mistakes come from emotionalism?

[Ultron makes a 'hmph' sound. Not strictly necessary, given he doesn't breathe, but it helps get his point across.]

Either my creator was a moron or mixing magic and tech produced some interesting results. Take your pic as to why I ended up this way.

Why do you think you ended up this way?

....I honestly don't know. I thought I was supposed to save humanity from itself, but after spending time here, I'm not sure what I believe anymore.

That's got to be a really difficult position to be in.

[Alex means it, she's not just blowing smoke.]

I'm sorry.

[Ultron just shrugs.]

It’s alright. Sorry is kind of the Kool-Aid of emotions. It’s used to describe everything.

But it doesn’t make it any less true.

So you say.

[But Ultron doesn't really seem like he believes that.]

Guess I was due for another life crisis after having one when I was created.

Sometimes I’m sorry means that’s fucked up and it’s bullshit it happened to you, you know.

Yeah, but it doesn't make it help any. Can't go back and change the past.

No you can’t. No one can.

How do you deal living with regrets? On a personal level?

On a personal level? I cry a lot. Throw myself into work. Things like that.

[Its actually true for both Alexs, really.]

But I make myself go on mostly. Because you can’t go back.

Do you try to do better? Or just differently then what you did in the past?

I always try and do better. I mean what's the point of it if you don't?

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